Once Ian’s diabetes was confirmed, I knew that I had the answer to a lot of questions about his behavior.
Over the past year and a half or so, he and I had been at odds a lot. I know talking back and being stubborn are part of being a little boy, but there were days and nights when he and I had screaming matches.
At one point this summer it was so bad I told his dad that if he didn’t shape up soon, I was going to see about getting him into counseling.
Now I strongly believe that his behavior was very much related to his blood sugar and his illness.
Our worst times were in the late afternoon, after school, before a snack. When he was hungry, watch out….he was mean.
Ian also had a weird obsession with food. Not so much about eating – he’s never been a great eater – but about the details of eating.
“When are we eating?”
“What are we having?”
“Will I like it?”
“What if I don’t?”
“Will there be enough?”
I was very frustrated with these questions and both my parents and my boyfriend had commented on this behavior.
I strongly believe that subconsciously, Ian knew that how he ate and what he ate affected his mood.
Irritability, short temper, crankiness, agitation….these are all things I saw in Ian.
And honestly, things I couldn’t deal with. I took it personally. I felt like a horrible mom for not being able to control his behavior. I was bothered about why he was so worried.
With a diagnosis of diabetes, I feel like I have an explanation for the way he behaved. My little boy could not control his emotions and behaviors and questions when his pancreas was failing him.